Fact: I haven’t heard Matty’s voice or Merlin Mann’s voice since May 23rd.

When I left on the roadtrip, Matt and I had been spending entirely too much time together.  We were starting to get irate and take each other for granted.  It happens. It doesn’t mean you don’t love someone, it just means you need your space.  I spent the first day of the roadtrip catching up on Back To Work podcasts and falling in love with my job again.

And then everything fell apart when I got that phone call.  It happens.

It’s been a tough 4 month slog.  I feel like if the first three months were all productivity, last month finally saw the crash.  It was all I could do to get out of bed and shower.  I stopped working, stopped exercising, stopped living.  But self-pity is in limited supply around here.  I’m boxing again, going out and forcing myself to live.  Because one of us has to.  Yesterday I started working on new designs for the fall.  

Today I did the thing I was dreading - I listened to a recording of Matt’s voice.  It didn’t hurt, it didn’t upset me, it just made me smile.  I think I’m ready to tackle those missed Back To Work podcasts and start building my business again.

… It’s happening.