since I lost my spouse, my best friend and my business partner.  I lost the future that we had planned and worked so hard to achieve.  We went full time with the business 2.5 years ago and never stopped to take a minute to appreciate each other.

I wish we had made more time to just be in love.

But the business is carrying on.  Since Matty passed away I’ve shipped out 237 orders, renovated a room, re-organized two other rooms, imported over $35K in latex sheeting, learned how to navigate the sea of paperwork that is importing/exporting, learned how to finance and run a business, learned Illustrator, learned how to operate a laser cutter, learned how to run, learned how to make all those products that only Matty knew how to make, lost 10lbs, learned how to scuba dive, shrank from a size 10 to a size 6 by rigorous exercise

…and realized that I’m a lot more awesome than I give myself credit for.

Even though every day I have to deal with the crushing sadness of knowing I’ll never see Matt again, I like to think that wherever he is, he’s really proud of me.  

Even if he’s not, I’m certainly proud of myself.